please forgive me if i act a little strange...

I feel like I start a lot of entries to everything I write with "So". But that's just how it is.

So--

Since the 7th, I have gone to church, had a deep and intense heart to heart with Matthew, spent time with Ben and Johnny, had Tess come home (FINALLY!) Hung out with Kathryn a good bit, spent more time with Johnny. Chipotle-d with friends into the late hours. Shopped with Brian twice. Did a 48 hour birthday marathon with Eva Jean B (my new favorite heathen, *laugh, who I would hate to live without) in Baltimore and MBC and all over Vienna and Arlington. Was attacked by hornets. Had sweet barbeque with churchies @ KD's. Became Johnny's girlfriend. Saw Beth Moore. Cried my eyes out about 8 times. Reconciled some stuff with my mother. Got a new pair of awesome jeans. Played Loaded Questions to mixed reviews and high comedy. All in all, a pretty good half week.

I am of course suffering from mild panic attacks about all manner of things, but praise God for He knows I'm a basket case and has given me the most beautiful, wonderful people to council and love on me, as well as berate and cajole me when I need it. Hannah = blessed.

We'll see what tomorrow has. I'm realizing more and more that I really just have to take it five minutes at a time. Or as the late father of one of my favorite authors (Anne Lamott) once said to his son who had an enormous project on birds to do with not enough time to do it: "Just take it bird by bird, buddy. Bird by bird."

<3
H.

p.s. Andrew Bird is coming to Sonar on September 29th. As soon as I get cash for birthday I'm getting tickets. Please please please come with me. One of my favorite artists + some of my favorite people = bliss.

"Your right hand just grazed my left shoulder!"

The above quote is from Mr. Johnny C. Resnick (or John Carlson, as he is more commonly known). I've been seeing quite a bit of this kid lately, and it's nice, because he was like my very strange adopted brother for a long time, and then dropped off the face of the planet. It's nice to have you back, John. Also Robert, who is quieter and more reserved, but just as goofy as John in his own right. Those two, Matt and I played Spades in the parking lot of Starbucks for about two and a half hours the other night. It was high comedy, mostly b/c they failed to give me a bunch of the rules when we first started and I flubbed up a lot. Blah. Also, Matt and John were alternatively trying to eat each other (see photographic evidence).

Went shopping yesterday, and although I have money, I probably spent too much. But I got AMAZING deals. Three shirts from Urban (sale), a cute shirt from J. Crew (Sale), and aviators from H&M, because I've been obssessing about them. All in all, $45 bucks. Not bad.

In other news: This summer is turning out to be a lot different than I thought it was going to be. I dont' think I'm going to do the New York trip after all (sorry, Red-- I love you madly, though) because of time constraints and working and then when I quit, I'm going to be working for Fred and going to CO. But we'll see.

Sami comes home in a week (reluctantly). Her blog makes me want to go to Egypt. Or rather, be traveling. I'm thinking I definitely want to do a summer in England or Spain. That would be awesome. We'll see what God has for me. I'm easy about that though.

Frontline tonight. It's already been a full day. It might get a lot fuller.

H.