no. 130: why am i still awake?

I believe the following are responsible for the fact that it is 4:52am and I am still awake:

a) two twiggys (earl grey and skim milk with vanilla syrup) and a large coffee
b) anxiety over things beyond my control
c) fear of dreaming things which will only further my anxiety
d) the cough i've again developed

aside from those things, i think i'd be zonked b/c it's been a long day, and i was OH so ready for sleeping.

in other news, my supposed best friend is utterly incomunicado, which is driving me insane and making me feel horrid. thusly carlos officially took his spot as male best friend today. geof was rightfully astonished, but i spent a decent amount of time with the cuban-american and as i told him-- i tell him everything anyway and even if he doesn't really need to know or care, he listens anyway and responds with helpful commentary. he also possesses the necessary skill of being able to tell me i'm being an idiot in a nice way, but not a too nice way.

greg called me today. it was good beyond description to hear from him. i've wanted to call him for weeks, but i figured he'd be busy with the whole being married and living in another state and carrying on a full time job thing. but he "missed his hannah" and i so i merited a time slot. for those who care: he's doing really well-- work, home, wife. savannah and he are discussing moving back to NoVa in a few years at the latest, which is good news.
me: there's no reason to come home any more! brian's no fun without you and geof and i never come up with any plans. you were the life of the party.
greg: yep, i agree with that completely.

i'm so ready to fall asleep it's ridiculous. tempted to watch an episode of firefly first and see if that helps, but i don't see it going that way. i'd just end up listening to alan tudyk's commentary and laughing hysterically and waking up Red. a thing to be avoided.


dear God, please send sleep.

h.